i can't do it

i just need other people around. everybody has left me, and i've experienced this acutely in the past month: i am not ok alone. i need other people, but who? who cares about me anymore? and not in a pity way, but in a genuine way.

life is so meaningless if there aren't people to share it with, you know?

i don't want my life to be this way, but it's hard to change and i often don't know how.